Hate Myself

I hate myself so much
And I dont think Ill ever be able to explain
This deep, dark, black hole within me,
That no one can ever touch;
Its so separate from my everyday life
Because I always hide it so well
No one would ever know unless they looked into my eyes
And caught my blank stare,
The one I get when I forget to smile.
I think about all my wrongs,
And I try desperately to find even the smallest right
But Im still searching, and I havent found it yet,
But I hate myself too much to ever believe its there.
This pounding, aching, burning in my chest
Swelling and pulsating, its fighting to escape.
Something's blocking my tears,
And it wont let it out,
It's growing into something so much more painful...