Serenity

I think about this life
That grows inside of me
And everyday I wonder
What kind of Mom I'll be

I worry if I will love
Her with every beat of my heart
Will I protect her everyday?
Will I teach her to be smart?

Will I give her enough?
Will she live comfortably?
Or will I mess it all up
Will she hate me?

I don't want to make the same mistakes
That my mother did
I don't want her to grow up hating life
Like me when I was a kid

And I want to look towards my mother
For her own advice
But when i think about it
I really do think twice

Maybe she never meant to hurt me
And tried her very best
But sometimes it's not enough
When someone's else's life is the test

I know I was her first
And she was very young
Well this is now my first
And I don't want to do it wrong

So how do I do it right?
What if I fail?
What if I am selfish?
I know I cannot bail

This is my new life
For the rest of my life
There's no other choice I have
But to do it right

I want her to love me
I want her to know she is loved
And give her the world
And the stars up above

Failure is not an option
There is no other way
But to get my life together
Before that December day

So pull it together
It's time to grow up
No more living for myself
No more screwing up

Because this life inside me
Means the world to me
And I am going to show the world
I can be the best mommy.