Mothers Day suicide

Mother I thought i was better
Mother I thought I was happy
But Mother what i didnt see
Is that what made me happy, wasnt the true me

I was happy
Or though i thought
But things will change as you know
But this one thing I\'d like to say is Mother I have to go

So have a great Mothers Day
I hope you still love me so
But I cannot be with you
So now im falling to the floor

Yes Mother, I was happy
But not so much anymore
You told me to hang on
But this I could do no more

My heart and soul collapsed
My whole body froze
Everything in me wants to give up and go

So why should I stay?
Im feeling too faint
What just really happened?
Am I too daised?

Im reaching for the end
And im letting go of what was good
Now im feeling anxious
Im feeling gross and alone

SO Mother what Id like to say
Is even though this is my last day
Im sorry we could not be together
I want you to see me today

I love you
And i thought another
But i cant be with you
So tell me you love me one last time
Because I am through