I'm not sure what I'm doing,
or what I'm feeling.
Not positive what I want,
or what I deserve,
but I need to figure this out.
Do I love him?
Yes.
But he's done so many things,
& acted so many ways,
that makes it close to impossible,
to trust him.
& though I want to,
common sense is telling me no.
He hurt me,
nearly destroyed my heart,
& still I'm standing...
Who's to say he won't do it again,
it's just so blurry...
What do I need,
what do I deserve,
what do I do?
