Forgiveness

I try to push away
The feelings that I feel
The destructive thoughts
And the bitter taste of life
That I've always held so dear

I try to distract myself
And go back to the days
Of mere happiness and cheer
Before I knew the pain
That is now so real

I get lost in the image
Of what beauty used to be
Before these vicious images
Took a hold on me
And chained me here

But still I wake up every morning
Knowing the pain I feel
Going through the same old thing
That I've gone through for years
Completely submerged in pain

I'm oblivious as to how
How to let go of my past
I can't figure out how to move on
Until I finally find the strength
To once and for all forgive myself