I cant complain about my life its great but emotionally I feel like nothing is right. People see me with a smile on my face most of the time it is real but others its fake and no one can tell. Inside my head I hear someone telling me your not pretty, no one likes you, your a freak, only part of your family loves you the rest wish death on your bed, and no matter how hard you try you will never be excepted for who you are. I don't think of killing myself because I am to big of a freaking chicken. Dreams turn to nightmares that haunt where ever I go. To my friends I cant confined as to my mom as well I keep how I feel locked up and never said. I am not looking for people to read this and say I am sorry you feel that way I just want something I can confined in and know I don't stand alone in this place we call home.
