The Cost

I've lived my life to believe
that there is more to life
that people can be kind and fair
and relationships can truly thrive

but what i see in front of me
does not agree with my belief at all
am i spending too much time on this thing
that will eventually just fall

i've put so many tears into it
so many memories and time
is this what i truly want
or just some seemless bind

my heart is in a tear
which way should i proceed
do i play around with life
or just go along with destiny

i don't even understand myself
let alone my heart's feelings
i think i know what i should do
but if so, why do i find myself kneeling

am i toying with my own emotions
playing with things that should just be left alone
but even that can't be true
for these feelings have just grown

do i stay in my safe path
or choose to risk it all
i just want to be happy
right now, im watching myself fall

so basically the question is
is it worth the cost of my way of life
or stay in this familiar path
that just grows duller day and night....