I use to run, with the wind at my back, pushing me on.
I ran, to escape. To get away.
Staying, just wasn't my way.
I wasn't afraid, I wasn't scared.
I just ran, because it felt the way it should be.
I just ran, until my lungs were empty.
I just ran, until my mind was clear.
I kept running, until there was nothing to run from.
Even then, I would still run.
I still want to run.
Run endless steps, far until there is nothing.
But..
I found you.
As I ran, I found wonder.
In the places I ran, I found you.
Now my feet are heavy.
Before I could run from sun to moon.
And now, when I still run.
I can't get far. Never far.
I stay close, close to you.
Even when I want to run, need to run.
I can't.
My feet weigh me down, hold me back.
The will to run is lost, gone on without me.
I want to stay. Because of you.
I can't go. Because of you.
I would run, because I did not fight.
Now if I run, it's only to you.
Now I fight, to keep you.
But it couldn't last.
The will left me, the wind left me.
And finally, you left me.
Again, I run.
No longer is it to escape.
No longer do I need to get away.
I can stay, if I wished.
But to stay, would be to cry.
For there is no longer you.
I don't need to escape, but I run.
I run everywhere your wonder was.
I run everywhere that it wasn't.
I try, to find you now.
The will is still not with me, I still don't want to run.
My feet are still heavy, and it hurts to push.
Push, I do. Because I feel I can find you.
I believe, if I hurt enough, if I show my love.
You'll let me find you.
You'll let me run to you, once more.
I run those endless steps, to find that nothing.
If not you.
I run, with the wind in my face.
To show you, how sorry I am.
And yes, I am sorry for all this.
For everything I did.
For everything I could have done.
I'm sorry I never told you.
But I tried.
To say that I loved you.
Would have never been enough.
