A Cry to my Mother

I keep staring at the blank space
I keep searching through an empty place
I write words that no one can see
I speak but nobody hears me

Or maybe everyone else can
Except for one, and all over a man
She ignores my tears I cry
She does not bother to try

She is the one I'm screaming at
To listen to my broken heart that
Just wants her to hear me
But my screams only fall silently

By a mute and invisible child
Franticly, manically, wild
A grown woman who's hurting inside
By a mother who's trying to hide

Never felt so betrayed
By whom I was made
Is it to too much to ask
For just this small task

I just want to be heard
I don't expect to be cured
But to know that you care
And that you are there

I feel I've been erased
Maybe even replaced
But instead I don't exist
Don't even feel missed

What do I have to do
To get through to you?
I don't think you really know
Maybe I don't always show

But I need you here for me
In this time of uncertainty
Is it too hard for you to do?
To put aside someone new?

For your family, your blood
The one who yearns for your love
You don't know how much it hurts
When you treat me like I am dirt

You act like I am not here
For a boy and maybe some beer?
Is it really worth the loss?
Is it really worth the cost?

How much of us will you lose
before too much time is used
How many scars will stay
Before I see the day

When it's too late to go back
Too much time will have past
Was it worth it in the end?
To have lost over and over again?

Can we ever repair
The time we weren't there
The moments that are gone
And we had to go on

I just want you to hear
What I am trying to make clear
Don't leave it to fate
Or one day it may be too late.