Dear Dad,

Why do I need a dad when all he does is make me cry and all I want to do is die. I thought having a dad would be great but not when he pushes me away maybe one day he will realize but then it could be to late. What if one day something happens to me will he just walk away? When I need a hug or if im down he is never there to say " it will be ok" My mom is taking his place. I wounder why he does this to me but one day i might understand. But what helps me through the pain is my mom I know she is a blessed angel from god...I never want him to come home cause then I feel like I just don't belong. Is it me what did I do wrong I just want a daddy who loves me for me....All my dad wants is a perfect kid and im srry i can't give him that but how does he expected me to be perfect if what i do is never good enough (for him) I hope one day he gets his wish I guess but how does he exected to get such a kid like that.....He is always shoving me away and throughing my mistakes in my face and is always saying he is going to send me away but one day it will be my time to go people in black suits at the funeral home crying and looking at me in such pain. But then on the other hand my dad will be wishing he could have one more chance and that he could tell me one last thing (im srry i gave ur heart so much pain and i truly do love u and i will never give u no more pain) and All he will do is wish he could have the chance to take the things he said back but now it is to late and the pain and suffering soon faded......

this is another one of my poems from my other name..