More than Feelings

In the shower I
Wash off the dirt
But the sin, and internal
Bruises still hurt

I try to scrub away
The feelings and dreams
From yesterday, but
The scars still stay

What was so Magical?
I'm not sure
But now its over
I wont let the pain occur

My skin is a map,
A diagram
to show you
Where my heart has been

Sudden stops, followed
By deep cuts and scratches
Where i gave in
And let my heart get attached

Love told me to lie
To lie to myself
To hide the bad
From the all seeing eye

It also told me to die
Because if your dead
Inside, you cant feel the pain
And you wont be able to cry.