Dear Diary, I almost commited suicide today

Dear Diary,
I am having my thoughts again.
The ones of suicide
I think this could be the end

I really don't understand
And I'm really not sure why
But for some reason
Tonight feels like goodbye

The tears are falling again
But, really when don't they fall
I guess it could be because
He lied and never calls

He cheated and he doesnt care
Oh yeah and did I mention he lied?
He never mentioned that he cheated
When I found out, needless to say I cried

I think that day my soul died
Maybe that's why I feel this way
I am dead on the inside
So why stay alive anyway?

I'm not sure what is going on
I am not sure what to do
I wonder who will care
Will my friends turn out to be true?

Diary you are the only one that understands
I don't want to die but
It hurts so much just to stay alive
Maybe I will just make a few cuts

Oh crap diary.
I think I pressed to hard
crap diary crap. I knew it
I shouldn't have used this glass shard

Crap diary what do I do?
Why do I talk as if you will reply
No no no no no I think...
I'm about to die...

No NO I don't want this anymore
No NO no no diary please stop this
I am fine I want to live another day
I swear to this, to this I insist

God I am so very sorry for what I have done
Please save my life
Please please please
I will drop the knife

Please crap I think my mom is coming
What do I do?
Do I ask for help?
I know I want to?

But she will flip
No diary make it stop
Blood stop please
BLOOD JUST CLOT

I can't die I just can't
No I don't want to anymore
Please someone help me
Please someone just opened the door

It's my mom.
She heard me crying
"What's wrong sweetie?"
"Nothing" "You're lying"

I'm gonna show her...
I wonder what she will say
"Mom please don't be upset.
I almost commited suicide today"