Anticipating the kiss of death

The kiss of death, the fear of pain, misery lurking deep inside my soul
~anticipation of loosing all control~

the kiss of death, fallen body, robbed of all life, suffering in silence, drowning in self-doubt
~anticipation of knowing there's no way out~

the kiss of death, swallowed by the mouth that's draining me of all my innocence, left naked and scorned
~anticipation of breaking this fragile heart that i have worn~

the kiss of death, controlled by suicide and the various ways to commit, loosing battle, emerging strife
~anticipation of the courage to push down on the knife~

the kiss of death, the blood drips down, razors and knives dull the pain inside
~anticipation of my dreams foreboding suicide~

the kiss of death, scars revealing past times, voices and memories carried in the wind
~anticipation that this nightmare will never end~

the kiss of death, battered body shaken and ill, loosing life, my last breath
~anticipation of dying... sealed with the kiss of death~