Im sorry for being who i am

I wrote this poem for my brother. i hope one day my father can forgive him

i think about what to say
yet I'm not sure how too
how to tell him I've fallen in love
and I've fallen for you

will he just accept it
will he say don't lie
should i even tell him
or not even try

i think deep down he knows it
he knows that I'm not straight
someone knocks on my door
its him i tell to go away

in reply he says
son your mother told me to see you
and she told me you were gay
she told me not to hate you
and this anger goes away

but this anger is still there
i see it in his eyes
he stares at me
and silently i cry

I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment
I'm sorry you don't want your son
but most of all I'm sorry
because i hate you and mum

i know i will love her again
but you i may not
to know that your not proud of me
of this homosexual son you've got