When i was little my life never made sense
But i always knew i could rely on my parents
Now that I'm older I'm still so confused
I feel like my life's just to keep people amused
When i try to talk nothing comes out
Because i can't explain what I'm so sad about
I wish i could tell people and just make them see
That these feelings i feel are taking a grip on me
Maybe it's me, maybe I'm not normal just weird
Why won't these thought subside and just disappear
I try to forget and get on with my life
But then it takes hold and cuts like a knife
It's many issues that have all come together
I'm getting to the point that I'm reaching my tether
I block it by drinking to take it away
But this will only ever keep it at bay
I know in the future it will come back again
But what scares me most is that i don't know when
I've put pen to paper to show how i feel
Even though this helps the pain will never heal
People think I'm strong but I'm scared
I would love them to see my heart laid bare
This happy smiling girl that they think is me
Is just but a girl pretending to be
