I know these thoughts are unhealthy
but they keep slipping in this sick mind
the meds I take make me go hallucinating
and this rain seems to be crimson red
And I'm dancing spinning around
in whatever comes down at me
will it be rain, blood or wine
Couldn't care it feels the same
Run away from the blinding light
into the black hole they dug deep
put on the gravestone and bury me
and hope I will never creep out
No more room left now to breathe
try to stay alive on nitrogen
Wait until I fade into the black
and can finally become undone
But am I scaring you with this
these self-destructing fantasies
Than how freaky must you be
carrying that unknowing smile
I wake up with a knife in my hands
you with a scented sun flora
I see the clouds gathering round
you the sun breaking through them
