Why me?

It's 10:56pm and i find myself sitting here alone, i feel lonely, i just spoke with someone who i was calling my man, and he told me that he wont be able to do this with me, that he couldn't be with someone that would treat him so bad , i sat here with the phone on my ear , not wanting to believe what i was hearing. when all i've been doing is putting him in most of my poems, telling him that he's everything para mi, y el no lo Quiere creer me, he said that i left him, yea i did but i told him that it was going to be for the best for our un-born child but that i wanted his support on this, will he's feeling lonely and i understand that but he also have's to understand that i'm struggoling on my own con mis hijo's yo no tengo madre , the one i had ! just thought she was to good, when i was feeling sad, and having my problems with my man, all she had to say que onda withyou, why are cryin' all the time, stop that noise, and it hurted me more , pero que puedo hacer. will i'm now feeling sad, this might not be a poem but i had to write it down, if there was something that i could change, that would be 'someone new' i would like to be born again. love, tita(janette)