Was killing me worth watching me die
Watching me bleed, suffer, scream and cry
Watching the girl you said you loved slowly slip away
And to the unknown abyss we call judgment day
The words you said to me I thought were true
How you said you loved me and how I loved you too
If what you meant what you said you�d still be here with me
Where ever you are now I just hope you can still see
The air in my room is clouded with thoughts of your life
It�s haunted by the flowers that mark my sacrifice
The ones left over from the ones I left at your grave
They will always remind me life will never be the same
I can�t take this pain much more; I miss you way too much
I guess you taught me there�s no such thing as trust
Since I cry all night and won�t awake this cursed day
I�ve grown to hatete the day we call November 8th
I can�t wake up at all anymore the pains too much to bear
You words are ringing in my head of how you said you cared
This overwhelming sadness that haunts my every dream
And reminds me of how you ran away from me
You were my best friend, my savoir and my love_I can only hope your watching me and you�re flying with the doves
I want you to forget me but I won�t ever forget you
I just won�t let you know every thing you used to do
How you called me baby and read my every thought
How when I thought I was ugly you told me I was hot
How every time I called you you always picked up the phone
How you always came to save me even if I was alone
How you broke up with her and came running straight to me
How you said you hated her and you could finally see
How you decided you needed me as much as I needed you
If only you were still here to say I love you too
I never thought the very one who wiped away all my tears
You, who saved me and killed off all my fears
Would just come and go as quickly as you came
Now everything�s worse and I�m back; drowning in my pain
I miss you, I love you, and don�t forget I care
But don�t start to regret any time we shared
All the things you said to me are burned into my head
So every time I fall asleep they seep into my bed
I remember the time you called me after a night out at the bar
You said hi and laughed when I made you get out off your car
I can just imagine the sparkle in your eyes
But when we hung up you got back in was the not-so-big-suprise
That bright redsurprisete I know you compared to a horse
And you were always saving up for that really pricy Porsche
I know you never got it but still I like to laugh
Every time I think back on your constant lack of cash
Well one thing led to another and all the good times turned to bad
You told me about the trouble cancer caused your dad
About your ex and how she stabbed you in the back
About you mother and how she never cut you any slack
Then the day it happened�when I know your father died
And how your mom swore it wouldn�t hurt her pride
How wouldnted to kick you out and beat you into the streets
How she�d lock you up and laugh at you as she threw away the key
So then you left me, that cloudy, dreary day
I�ll never forget you, or November 8th
Everything they tell me always has something to lack
I�m pouring out my soul to you but I can�t ever bring you back
