Feeling

Thoughts of suicide in my head,
I've spilled my blood in my bed
No one really cares to ask and know why,
But yet they think they can all try and try

People come and people go,
What they do no one knows
But I'm so far away from the only one that cares,
And all the pain it causes me to have, I'll never share
Just because you pretend to care

When I cry I don't wallow in self-pity,
I just can't hold the tears back and it makes me feel shitty
Today I was told I was loved,
But only one person made me believe it

You don't know my life,
You can't feel my strife
So why can't you just leave me alone?
No one knows of my pain UN-shown

So when I die
You'll finally know why
Because your heart doesn't have to break
For you to feel the worst heartache

Every time I think of her I hurt more inside
But she's always on my mind
And she's there to stay
Forever anyway

"I can not say and will not say that she is dead just away"(that las bit in quotes is not mine)