Escapable Unescapable Darkness

You see empty darkness instead of the flicker of light
To you all hope is gone
In your mind you can never escape the past you so detest
The pain burning deep; an unbearable heat blistering your soul
It's deeper than you can cut, you cant rid it
You've tried to escape so many times and so many ways
But every time you fail, fail to rid yourself of...you
So you miss every bright moment, all the happiness
Every flash of light you are blind to, closing your eyes tighter
Afraid to move on and let yourself be happy
Punishing yourself needlessly
Puncturing your heart and hoping someone else will rip out the knife
You want to bleed, you want to hurt
You can deny it but I can see it in your eyes