Life regret

As i can't stop crying,
my pain just divides,
giving me more reasons to cut,
and plenty more to die,

razor's aren't the best,
i like things that hurt,
things that make me scream,
my whole life treated like dirt,

i never had a shoulder,
a blunt knife was my friend,
it took away my pain,
and made my shit life end,

suicide never made sense,
it just happened so quick,
i couldn't stop thinking of the pain,
and how it made me sick,

every scar was a memory to remember,
every tear was a moment to forget,
i didn't deserve this sad ending,
my life lived was a big regret.....