Dad,
I know your lost in words and emotions , but you have me your daughter and granddaughter to live for . I lost my brother and I know it was your son but can you please see we need you too . I can tell you we need you more then AJ (my brother) does right now. He is in heaven , a way better place then here. I know you wish you would have done more for us when we were growing up. To tell you the truth you done more then you know of. And Aj would not change a thing you did and didn't do. you inspired AJ so much, he wanted to follow your footsteps and why can't you see that .I know it's hard , look at the bright side Aj is safe , in a better place you don't have to worry if he is okay anymore. You need to be here not only for me but your grand daughter.Whatever it is that you didn't do for AJ and I , you can do it for Mya(grand daughter) Don't give up on life Aj Would not want that. Aj wants you to be happy .. Just remember that Aj is looking down on you every single day , and I know he would rather see you happy then sad all the time ..Lets see you know AJ wanted to build a race car well since he can't do it , why don't you in his memory and honor . You dad can help AJ's dreams come true . It might hurt doing it but at least you know thats want he wanted to do in his spare time .. I know he will look down and be proud of you if you made his dream come true . But your the only one that can do it. So give it a try it won't hurt to try .And as far as me goes I wouldn't change nothing at all .. Dad your mistakes show me a lesson and thats great because I seen it been there and I have the opportunity to give Mya a better chance just because I've been there in the past. Now take this to the heart do what AJ wanted and where you feel that you mess up with me and AJ do it for Mya here is your second chance.. I love you for who you are and what you are. I couldn't ask for a better dad then you! So please think about all of this before you judge yourself ..
