A broken mold

I'm caught in a web of deceit and lies
Choking me as they spiral out of control
Struggling to understand the reasons why
Draining everything from my heart and soul

It eats away at me every night
Burning deep into My head forever scarred
Now my future only seems bleak never bright
I want to tell but why is the truth so hard

Why was i the one that got singled out
Is it to much to expect to be treated like a person
What is this one man invasion all about
As long as i hide it the torture will only worsen

I remember the first time he touched me
I felt the bile rise in my throat fast
The goosebumps on my body a silent prayer leave me be
As all my dignity and privacy floated away, the image of my past

It happened again everyday for years to come
Inside me conjured hatred for myself and hatred for the beast
All i wanted was to be pure again and courage to tell someone
I'd lost my energy my eyes vacant my life had ceased

Then one day i fought back something in me erupted
A feeling of such relief released from his hold
I've told the story the feelings of a girl corrupted
Piecing together a new life from a broken mold.