Why is this my fate

Why am i so forgiving
of the ones that hurt me
the ones that hate me
the ones that only just do it again
after forgiveness
i cant seem to hate
i cant seem to dislike
and i wonder why
this is so
why i cant hate some one
no matter how much they hate me
all i can do is care about them and worry
as if they were my friends
if they hit me i wont fight back
and i don't get why
why i cant hit them for the pain they caused
to me and my feelings
all i do is stand back up and let them hit me again
not even throwing a punch or a kick
i don't get why
why i care for humanity so much
after all we've done
after all others make us appear
i cant hate
i cant dislike
is there something wrong with me
why is this
why must i endure the pain and let it go
why must i just get back up
just to be knocked back down
on the ground
not even caring of the scratches and bruises
and then i get back up just to walk away
just to come back to the same position again
another day
why cant i hate
why is this my fate
why must i still live
if thats all i can do
is like and never dislike
no matter how painful it is
and still call them my friend in the end