They didnt understand

My friends didn't understand
when i started to wear all black
they thought it was just a phase
and soon I'd i want to change back
at first they didn't say anything
then they said they missed the real me
i said 'this is the real me'
they didn't believe me so they decided to wait and see
they really thought i was only playing a game
but truth be told i was going through way too much pain
they told each other i was going insane
when they turned away i brought that knife to my vein
they had no idea
what i did inside my home
they had no clue
how it felt to be all alone
they finally decided to just 'play along'
they started calling me a goth
what the hell did i do wrong?
i felt like a used up washcloth
one day i decided to skip school
all of my friends freaked out
they found me in a nearby ditch
crying and all worn-out
they started screaming things at me
telling me i put them through a lot of pain
i stood up and showed them my wrists
i screamed 'this isnt a game'
i ran all the way home
locked myself in my room
sat in the corner
and i thought of my doom
i took out my razor
started slashing away
getting rid of my anger
i scream 'dont let me stay'
the tears stung and i struggled to see
everything was getting blurry
my lungs hurt and i struggled to breathe
death was taking over me
all alone i cried
bleeding inside
i layed there and died
and i whispered goodbye