They are supposed to be there to trust. when then trust is broken between you, it is the worst feeling you can ever have.
at first, i did not understand.
i was only twelve.
was it supposed to happen.
he had been with my mum for 10 years.
why has he started now.
he used to say it was a game, he would say lets play.
and then it would end with its our little secret remember.
he treated me like a 5 year old.
this went on, for a while. and things got worse.
i soon started to realise it was wrong.
but i could not Say anything.
deep down i wanted to tell, but i couldn't
i was scared!!
then year later they got married.
i thought that would be it.
but no it got worse.
whenever i was in the house alone, or lay in my bed,
he would creep up thinking i was asleep, other times knowing i was only pretending.
he would slowly start to relax my body, and then he would do it.
he would rape me.
I hated him so much, but was to scared to tell.
what would happen if i did, i used to lye awake crying for months, thinking that no-one would believe me.
i wanted someone to realise something was not right. i wanted it to stop.
then that day in December,
when a friend asked what was wrong.
i knew it was the right time, 2 weeks before my 16th birthday.
that was the time to tell, someone at last had noticed. i wrote it down n i told the little secret.
that secret was: my step dad abused my for 3 years.
