But I Can't Love Him

Maybe its like they said, maybe I am falling in love with the idea of being in love. But I can't love him. And For some reson I can't tell anybody about him and I. I should have told my bestfriend about last night. I should have called her right away, and we should have spent hours and hours till four in the moring we should have stayed on the phone. But after we where done I just went down stairs and went to bed. I thought about it. But she wouldnt get it. But she is my bestfriend! Why wouldn't she? Maybe I should take this secret that him and I have and use it as a bond between him and I? Or should I not even think anymore of it? I'm not a virgin anymore and I dont have a soul to tell it too.