Why??

Why am I still here?
Why am I still alive?
I thought it was over
I thought I was free

Laying in a puddle
Of my own blood
On the bathroom floor
Wondering 'did I do this?'

With eyes blood shut
Head throbbing
Fingers tingling
And my body pail and cold

I hear a door slam
And a small shriek
As I close my eyes
And slowly die