For the First Time in My Life I Did Something Right

It all starts off well in the beginning
The love is pure, and new to both
Your thoughts are always about that person no one else.
Your heart seems to be swept into a never-ending daydream of them
You believe that the two of you are going to be together forever.

But as the months pass the flaws that you never noticed come out. The acid called life finally hit you in the face and shows you that your realtionship is not perfect and that you will have fights to have your love survive but if all this is to much heart-ack is what will come next.... this is my story of just that.

My stomach was in knots knowing it had to be done,
i must finish this before I breaks apart. She is destroying me and killing my heart. But in truth my depression and personality disorder does not help.

That night was rainy and dreary. My illness was at a state of destruction. My mind was running wild and my body tired as can be. The only thing I can really tell you is she was the only thing in my life keeping me alive but when I saw how much my depression hurt her I had to do what I thought was right

Beginning of the End--

After a play. I told her that we had talk, that was very important. The thunderstorms where rolling in and I could feel my feet start to drag as if telling me to turn back. We walk to a bench and I sat down on the cold wood. I slowly took off the ring I held around my neck for a whole year, my hands were shaking. I looked at them thinking about how many memories it held of us together and the symbol of our relationship. My heart was wrenching up with tears and my body begins to go numb. She starts to tell me to stop but I put my shaking finger against her soft lips. I kiss her on the lips one last time and put the necklace around her neck where it always belonged. I could not hold it in any longer. Tears started to flow from my eyes as I watch the smile from your face fade, and a tear start to form.

I wanting so bad to tell her not to cry that everything will be fine and that I still loved her but instead I opened my mouth and spoke for the first time the real truth " I am giving you, your life back". She starts to cry as her head falls on my shoulders, she clutches me tightly as if telling me not to go. I feel her heart beat against my chest and her breathing quicken. I hugged her back showing her I will always be here for her no matter what.

After a long time she releases me and start to take of the ring I gave her from her neck off but I tell her to keep it and remember what we once had. I tell her that I am so sorry for everything I have ever done to hurt her and tell her to move on without me quick, that I was never good enough for her. She shakes her head and tells me no I was never good enough for you.

The rain starts to come down as my tears and hers mix with the rain. I tell her one last time as I put my hand on her beautiful face "I will love you forever, I will like you always, together forever you and me".

The rain is now pouring as my hand falls from your face.... and the realization you are never again going to be mine hit me hard. You begin to stand up slowly as if asking me to tell you to stay but I cannot speak another word. Once you where out of sight I walked home in the rain thinking about how for the first time in my life I finally did something right