I Miss You, Im So Sorry

by Jenna   Aug 17, 2007


I miss your existence,
the smell of your perfume.
i hide the bottle in my room so no one can use it,
only you.
i hide the things you loved through out the house so daddy wont through them away,
i know even though its been to years,
he really misses, till this day.

I know the last thing i said to you before you got sicker was i hate you, i really didn't mean it, but it hurt me when you said it too.
I know you didn't mean to hit me all the time,
i forgave you for that.
i even forgave you,
when you stabbed me in the chest.
everyday when i look at that scar i remember you.
i know the alcohol helped taking the best of you.

when we lost grandpa, that was the time we started loosing you,
i know you missed him, you told me so.
when you got up in the middle of the night and wandered out into the woods, i followed you and would hear you calling his name
i heard you crying, remembering he was gone,
i started crying too.

We fought a lot i remember that,
but i know we had good times too.
i used to take you out in the boat all day,
we'd talk about everything on our minds.
you gave me advice about life
it helps me out even till this day.
i hear your voice in my mind with every decision i make each day.

i miss you so much, i just hope you know,
i really did love you,
that never changed.
i know you were sick thats why you were the way you were,
i wish you wouldn't have died, cause i really want to tell you how sorry i am
for not loving you the way i should have.

***this is a poem about my grandma, she died 2years ago after being sick for 10 years. she got worse after my grandfather died. i miss her so much. please comment or rate it would mean a lot. thanks.

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  • 17 years ago

    by La Muse Angelique

    This is I guess my favourite poem of you, i like this write because your not only describing the good memories but also the sad and maybe even the more painfuller memories. Indeed sometimes life is just not that perfect, a beautiful written tragic rememberance of a grandmother.
    I'm sorry for your loss, but thank you for sharing it with us.

    5/5

    xo angelique

  • 17 years ago

    by Teria

    Capitalize the I's.

    I love this, I think it's more because it's longer than your usual.
    The flow was a bit off here and there, but you sill made the long lines work together.

    Keep it up dear.

  • 17 years ago

    by Brittney

    If she were still alive, I know this poem would make her proud. It's sad and touching, and even though I haven't lost my grand-ma, I've lost my grand-father, and I know how it feels. Really good poem!!!

  • 17 years ago

    by Baby Rainbow

    I have shivers now, reading this means a lot to me as i miss my gran too. i am sorry that you were hurt and had to go through this. however i am glad you had good times to rememebr also. your poem is very moving, reaches out with such sad feelings.
    your gran will be reading this and saying she loves you honey - she will be watching over you and she is forever in your heart xxxxx