Empty Soul

As I relinquish my soul
Images of your beauty come and go
Like a rivers flow they seem to never end
And that when I realize that I will never win
You where the one for me but now your gone
And day by day my mind slips into a even greater depression
Suicide crosses my mind and pain begins to pour
It flows into my very being and I cant handle no more
I beg God to send you back to my arms
But in the end he relishes into me causing my self harm
I have lost all hope and abandon all faith
Eventually my own life I will take
People say move on but my heart wont allow me
The love I have for you still, will never leave
Why has this happened what have I done
Then I realize then end shall come in the barrel of a gun
It seems to be the only way out but yet I cannot do it
What will I have left, and what shreds of hope wont commit it
They give me courage to believe that there still might be hope
But I know the truth that your gone and with that I must cope
Every day I blame myself more for the end to our relationship
If I wasn't so bullheaded then I wouldn't have tripped over little shit
You where in the wrong too
But forgiveness should have came more soon
I realize that in the end I was the reason it was ruined
So now forever to have an empty soul I am doomed