Am I? True story

I lost a brother to drunk drivingfive years ago.
now Idrink every night makes me feel
like I'm a killer too

It's the only way I get by
it lets my mind be free
I can't help it I need it

I depressed over it
And theres no where to turn
Why dose life have to be this way
I know I need help
But where do you find it

i don't want the world to know
i took drinking over reality
Who is there to help
No one will ever understand
Where I'm coming from

I wish I could change
but All I know is pain
Growing up poor
Being rape on a daily basices

I'm a dark person
Very cold to the touch
i wish I die
Instead of my brother

What do I have to live for
Nothing at all
Kill me now
I plea

Good bye