Karma

I remember when you were the one chasing after me
You wanted me so bad and I just couldn't understand why
I figured it was just wanting what you can't have
So all your attempts ended with a deny

You flattered me constantly with your words
Made me almost believe you meant them with your actions
Yet every time you told me how much you wanted me
I gave you the same exact reaction

I told you I didn't feel the same
And I wished that you would just leave me be
Until that fateful day came when you actually did
And suddenly you stopped chasing after me

It was then I realized it was all a lie
And that I had been suppressing my real feelings for you
I didn't want to let you in because I was afraid
I was afraid you wouldn't love me if you really knew

I didn't want you to find out who I really was
Not the cheerful, happy girl I strive so hard to portray
But the girl filled with problems and confusion
The girl who struggles to survive day by day

I wish I could've just told you the truth
Instead of living the I lie created in my head
Now I realize what they mean by to little, to late
As I lie here thinking about you in my bed

I don't understand how I'm crying for you
When you were just here begging me to stay
You never asked of anything from me
Except that I feel the same way

You just wanted me to love you
And I did! I loved you...I still do
You spent your nights dreaming about us
And now I spend my nights dreaming about you

And now I live in dreams because I'll never have you in reality
I know it's because I just wouldn't accept the truth, couldn't give in
I refused to show someone the real me
And now I lie here thinking about everything that could've been