With these negative feelings i have, i'm never going to be satisfied with myself.
my life is meaningless, and i can't enjoy every moment of it anymore.
can't pretend to be neutral if life doesn't work out the way i want it to be.
so confused when i can't comprehend to anyone.
i wonder why my mode of living is so hard to get away from.
i can never justify to how i feel, and it hurts to continue on.
ever felt apart from who you thought you loved and cared for?
sometimes the ones you love may never notice how you live your life.
sometimes you are invisible to them.
the pain i feel can never be removed.
it's put in its place and it will remain in its position forever.
with my weakened heart killing me, i will never survive.
the idea of convincing is too close from lacking.
can i ever trust anyone again?
that's far from happening.
are you ever going to listen to me?
i highly doubt it.
is there ever a reason for why i am doing this?
sure there is.
i hide from the truth so i can bare with the pain i was put through.
i want more grief, i want more pain.
let these feeling still remain.
no bravery, just weakness.
no satisfying, just emptiness.
i don't want your forgiveness, i don't want to rely on you anymore.
i can't stand for too long, but i don't want to fall down yet.
i don't want to embrace the change that i'm given.
i will never let go of the experiences i have encountered.
i can't consider life the way it is anymore.
