Are we friends?

For so long we've been inseparable...we talked for hours on end, laughed all the time...and always had fun, it was this way since we first became friends...so long ago. we may have had our secrets, but we didn't lie

I know its been a long time but we were always so close...until the year just passed, when i broke down, suffering inside, you started going out with the guy i liked...time passed and we moved on...then came the dramas and suddenly you needed me again...together we became stronger..nothing in our way...not boys or parents.

now you've got a new love...and when you told me you weren't allowed out i accepted it, as i always accepted your excuses...but then i find out that you lied to me over something so trivial...you were seen with your boyfriend, if you had told me i wouldn't have cared i never cared before about you choosing him over me.

but you lied to me and you were found out in the lie, how can i trust you again, i haven't seen you in so long, not through lack of asking you to spare time for me. if your boyfriends is more important... then yes i respect that, because of your love, but I've kept my promise to be your best friend and keep time for you. i still know your day to day schedule.

i wonder if you will even see me on my birthday next month, or whether you will walk away and not even remember. i never forgot your birthday and even though i could not see you on the day i messaged you and arranged to see you to give you your present and traditional hug later that week.

so tell me now and please tell the truth. Are we friends, or is it all an act to keep me here, i miss the friendship we had, the laughter and memories we share, i wished for there to be more but...the way you act now leads me to believe that you don't want to see me...so if this is goodbye then at least have the nerve to say it, don't leave me hanging my heart is crying because your not around anymore