Used to be so stuck

So stuck on you I would cry at the drop of a hat about you, for you. So stuck on you I didn't know whether or not to breathe or just quit:such an ultimatum. I didn't know whether to open my eyes and think about you or close them and do the same thing. I dropped to my knees from hurting over you. Doubled over, no breath, and crying over you. Every day was ugly. I hated myself, I loved you. I wasn't healthy. I was sick, broken, and without you, my very source of it all I thought. You didn't care. A doomed relationship, but not from the start. I don't know what happened. Maybe it was from start. I loved you. I'm cool now.