You left me.. it was your time

I remember everything that happened the night you died

It was the hardest thing i have ever had to watch; seeing my whole family cry.

But it was still time for you to go my mom would say

As i sat up at night crying, cradling my head

I still needed you ya know, on earth, here with me.

You were the one person who could actually make me see

See the good things in life when times are rough

To still be happy when you ran out of luck

I don't believe in god anymore.. i just gave up

If there was a god life wouldn't be so hard and so tough

I remember how you use to pray every night

I remember i wanted to pray to, so i could be just like you

Until i watched god slowly take your life away

It wasnt fair to any of us.. not even you.

You were the main person keeping the family together, like glue.

But i guess it doesnt matter anymore because your still not here.

Though i feel your presence sometimes, when im depressed and on the verge of tears

And then it doesnt hurt so bad anymore, because in a way i know your there

But you were my strength, you kept me strong

And since you left it hasnt been that long

It feels like your still downstairs

And when im depressed you'd still be there, to hold me close, and whisper in my ear

"Dont worry hunny, Papa will always be here"