Helpless

Every memory, every waking hour
I lie around chaotic and powerless
To the endless dancing and counting
For the seconds passing
Taking my life without a thought

Yet no image, no dream could help
As I slowly wish time away
Because with this pain
Without you
I don't know how to try

I never dreamed how much
I couldn't quite imagine
How true those thoughts were
And how I can't say them
Until you return

Alone and corrupted the adjectives desert
I cannot find the words to describe
My stumbling breath and faltered hand
Refuse to bring relief
As I gaze softly into space
Wishing for your return
And asking
Asking how I could ever survive this
Again.