Right Now As I say my first *line* Im Going to warn you im not trying to*whine* but how i feel you may not *understand* you may not be kind and lend out a helping*hand* but im feeling so empty O so *blue* lost and alone which isn't exactly *new* Im living through the days with a *smile* while at night im crying a new *nile* The things i do and what i *write* try to help me stand tall till the *night* where i break down and let out my *tears* i cover up and hide scared of my *fear* my heart is broken held together by one *thread* i am a young girl dying from all the lies this world has *fed* i may not be perfect but i can try to *be* but as i keep trying im losing the real *me* my legs shake and weakly i've fallen *down* im crawling trying to stand off the *ground* no one even notices cause my lips help it *hide* but if you look into my eyes you'd see the tears i've *cried* if you try to count my *tears* it'd take up plenty of *tears* because i cry as much tears in one *night* as bullets being shot through the wars *fight* i am not insane like you make me out to *be* i am just a girl wanting her spirit to be *free* a girl who wants her heart to beat with out the *pain* a girl who wants no of her tears *staint* a girl who has wings to lift her off the *ground* but instead im a weak girl to scared to make a *sound* the pain controlls me and makes me *weak* controlling my mouth so i can't even *speak* did you ever try to understand or give a hand to *lend* did you ever once try to even *comprehend* did you even look once at *me* and notice my souls not *free* did you ever talk and not feel the hurt that each word had i *sed* did you ever once try to ask what was running through my *head* did you ever think about what hid behind a laugh or *smile* did you even ask if i was okay everyone once in a *while* no you just are letting me *die* you don't even watch me when i *cry* my teddy bear feels like my only *friend*the only thing that helps my life *mend* my fours walls holding my secrets and *pain* im locked in this prison secured with a *chain*so many thoughts that make my mind *swirl* this is the life of me the hurt teenaged *girl* now that you read this do you think the *same* do you think my sadness is just another *game* have you ever once said it would be *okay * and promised it'd be better one *day* now that you read this i don't want *sympathy* all i ever wanted was to be *me* to be liked for who i was and the looks god gave to *me* but you all made it like perfect was what i had to *be* so i tried to reach for the *dream* and make it in the perfect *team* but i failed now im weak and left to *Cry* every night more wishing i would *die* the night holds my secrets an the walls im surrounded *in* and everyone always wondered why i put the blade to my *skin*
