Torn Between The Wishes

I sit here in obscurity
Reoccuring past
Wishing that i could relive
That I could look then die

To bother to churn by my head
Causing my heart to rebound
Emotion to the emotion
Grieve to grieve
I wished that the one to trust was me

The pictures of pictures of friends of lovers
Killing my every turn with their heart aching lies
Sorrow soaks my doubt, Soul drives my spirit
Sometimes i wish i could just stop the care
And Leave all the memories to rest

Therefore I sit in obscurity
In the hallway of angst
I stare at the broken lights
And they remind me of my heart
So now i relive the memories past
And keep wishing upon death
For when the time comes to finally go
I'll know my life wasnt for the best