I cant help the way i feel, love hate anger or sadnesss, happiness joy or fulfillment.
when i am with you all these emotions roll into one.
i love you very much and am happy to spend time with you but loving someone and being in love with them are two completely different things.
and i dont think i am in love with him and i dont think i ever was but it would break my heart to know i might have to spend my life without him around.
sometme in life we have to be selfish and think about what is best for ourselves.
in the long run i dont think this is what is best for me telling lies and sneaking around so i am telling you now i have a future ahead of me and you cant be a part of it.
