The Ring I Still Wear

Im trying not to think about you tonight
But it seem that I will not win
I let the images of us run through my head
I feel a sense of longing for those times to come back into my life. I miss everything we once had and once hoped for. We were going to be married, together forever and never apart but now here I am single and forgotten by you

I feel my heart wrench up with tears and my body start to shake. I touch the engagement ring that still is on my finger. Once a symbol of love but now hate. I should have taken it off months ago but find that if I take it off a piece of me will go with it.

I miss having someone there to hold me in there arm to protect me from all the pains of life, I miss those nights filled with never ending love and happiness, I miss the times when we fought and in the end only fell deeper in love, I miss have my best-friend being my lover...but most of all I miss whom I was when I was with you. I miss me

I move from my ring to the marks on my arm all made for you. A once simple problem has turned into an addiction. For the pain that comes from the cuts brings peace to my head and a block to my heart. Ever since we broke up I cant stop.

But losing you isnt the hardest part; its knowing that I once had you that tears me apart. The knowledge that I had that best and lost it.

You were my life and the one good thing left in it, without you I am nothing and have nothing. People always say that you always learn something from a broken relationship. What have I learned?? That theres a difference between letting go and pretending youve forgotten. I very good at pretending...

But tonight I will turn my back on us, and you. Tonight I will start anew, tonight I will finish the destruction of me and start to rebuild like you have. I will try to move on and forget but I know that but every time I hear your name, I still feel a little something I just can't let go and that maybe someday you will give my heart back....