I hope you don't mind a bit of "critique."
I would suggest putting each sentence on a new line, breaking it down, making it less paragraph style.

"As the changing of seasons prepares me for the long and distance winter that is to come."

*distant

Anyway, with that said, I really like the title and line it comes from - "...how I wish I could finally look up without the shame stained in my eyes."
Beautiful, a lot of good rhythm, and a lot of strong emotion, again!

(Thank you for the other comment on "Lies are like secrets" - I didn't realize it was from you since it was under a different (user)name.)

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Um, seems depressing, but it's good. =)

Its so sad but i like it!

How I wish I could have back the good but throw away all the bad<-----i love how you sad that i wish that same lol always..o just so u know imma 5 all your poems their so good