Only If You Knew

The tears I've shed
and the pain I've been through

Have taken me somewhere I don't want to be

I'm already becoming the person
I told you I wouldn't be

If you knew what I've done
What I've thought of doing

Those calls you don't answer
And those texts you never reply to
Kill me inside

I've lost hope and motivation

I tell myself I don't love you
When I know I do

I'm told to let go
When I know I should

Letting go will cost a part of me
I probably wont get back

Ill give up someday
But today isn't that day

Today Ill try

Today Ill hold onto everything
You gave me

Today I wont forget
What we were
What we could be