His decision

The bruise from him
Hidden under a thick layer of cover up
The emotional tearing of my heart
Hidden with a smile
Long sleeves and long pants
Hide the cuts and scratches
He gave to me

School teachers look at me as if they know
Classmates don't acknowledge my existence
And people on the street just stare

I return home to a drunkend father
He begins to yell
Whats new
As I ignore him I go to my room
About to pray to the lord

He comes stumbling in
Throws himself on my bed
And takes the gun to his head

His last words before this tragedy
"it was you who drove me here"

I lay in bed at a foster home thinking of the nights I spent alone hiding from his rage in fear
I pray to god and wonder why he gave me a life so hard
As tears flow from my eyes I realize
He gave me this life
Because I can handle it
Strong and wide minded
The lord loves me and that's all that matters.