I Won't Even Know

So much pain and hurt
to write
Yet the words just
don't come out
Jumbled all in
my head
Screaming thoughts,
I want to shout
A foggy haze for miles
beyond sight
Nothing in front or behind,
just hoovering around
I can't get it straight,
control my thoughts
My realities and fantasies
just fall to the ground
As I wish to skip
this phase
Where everything must
fall to build again
I know I won't know
when it's over
And I set off to start
another beginning's end

Feb. 8, 2007