my first love

As I look into the mirror.
wondering none stop.
I sit here trying to act like everything is fine. The pain is so inevitable it sinks into me like a dagger threw the heart. You always inspired me to go on. Tell me who will inspire me now. Who will make my heart jump every other moment. The days I was with you.though they were very few I felt a senseless joy that I could not help but to tell.
you taught me so many things but none any more evident than this the way to live life to the fullest extent not holding back a breath.Never let things hold you back,don't let them make you upset. You always saw the good in life and I admire that. So as I look into my mirror I sit and wonder still. Why it is you won't come back or why you love to kill. You know how to love someone without a doubt but still the pain you inbedded into me is undying and unforgiving.I gave you all I had. My love will always be with you someways, but not in others. On one hand I want to forgive but the other says I can't,so forever I will sit and wonder of what we could have been and I will always remember you as one of the people in my book of broken heartedness.