Maybe It's Better This Way

I miss him, though I say otherwise
I look for him even when he's not there
I lie to myself just to keep my heart from breaking
I say I don't even care

We talk, yet it's all pointless
Our conversations seem all forced
To him a word may mean nothing
But to me it causes remorse

Why suffer the pain in darkness?
Why torture myself these past few days?
Why the longing to see him
when he won't even look at me that way?

I bleed with all this yearning
It's been bleeding all this time
I long for us to be together
though i know he can never be mine

And so i watch from a distance
Looking at where he stands
Seeing him smile as my heart breaks
Unable to hold his hand

My heart burns with my longing
So many things i wanna say
But he seem so happy without me
Maybe it's better this way