I sit alone,watching all the happy beautiful people.
Why cant I be like them? I think to myself.
Why do I feel so alone and sad all the time?
Does anyone even notice me?
Does anyone even care how I feel?
I wish I could make all these feelings so away.
But my past has hurt me to much.
All of it stays with me and tortures me.
Why cant I just have one thing that I want in life?
That is all I ask for.
No one seems to have what I want.
No one seems to want to give me it either.
But then, I can not force someone to do it.
Am I not worth their time ?
Am I not worth their love?
Do they not want to waste their love on me?
Tell me why Ive been hurt so much.
Tell me you do not want to see me in pain anymore.
Tell me you want to it all away.
Tell me you want to love me.
That you want to love me better than anyone else has.
I sit alone, thinking about all of this.
It wont leave me alone.
It tugs on my heart.
Everyday I feel like this.
Everyday I think about it.
I wish I could stop.
But I just cant.
Sometimes I do not feel alive.
Sometimes I feel so invisable.
Sometimes I just wish I was not here.
Sometimes I wish never loved someone.
If I had not of loved someone before,
I would not feel this way.
Pain.
Sadness
Loneliness
Oh how I wish I felt real love.
Maybe it would make these feelings go away.
Maybe it would make me feel more alive.
I feel so unnoticed.
Like everyone just wants to ignore me.
Like they do not want to know how I feel.
Like they do not want to deal with me.
Am I wrong to think like this?
I do not know.
But this is what I think.
This is what I feel.
