Young girl yet older than 12
Living in this retarded hell
Wanting to live yet wanting to die
Only god knows my lies
Wanting to leave yet knowing I need to stay
I just want it all my way
I want my parents to listen to me
I want everything to be up to me
I am not selfish, well I guess saying this I am
But nothing horrible will happen
I lie in Gods hands
I'm wanting to die and wanting to leave
Am I this mean
To my family I guess I am
Someone help me
Before I do something we will all regret
Am I going to do something bad
Something that will put my life in danger
Please I need to vent
I don't want to get sent away a gain
Yet somehow I do
Maybe I will be better
But what is best for me
I know I need to fight through this phase
Yet somehow I do not want to
My life seems like a maze
I need help, yet I refuse it
I question why
I wish I had someone who I could trust
The only thing is I do
Do I put myself through this?
I love my family do not get me wrong
Its just so hard living with them
It�s the crap I put myself through
Right now I do not know what to do
